Friday, September 7, 2012

Spiritual direction

IN roughly an hour and a half from now, I leave for our September formation session which I have been looking forward to with great anticipation. I am a bit downcast because I enter this formation looking for a new spiritual director.


It has proven extremely difficult logistically for my spiritual director and I to meet regularly. This is partly due to logistical issues related to my disability, partly due to his schedule, and partly due to mine.

He recommends (rightly) that I should seek a new spiritual director with the consultation of our director of deacons. I certainly don't have a problem with doing that, but I also have no idea where to turn, or who I can turn to that has been approved by the diocese for this purpose who is close to me (I need someone relatively close-our diocese is very spread out).

The Lord has allowed me thus far to continue in my studies for the deaconate and has removed many obstacles miraculously that have been in my path. I can accept it if it is not the Lord's will for me to press on (although it would be a source of personal pain that I would have to endure), but I would like to believe that if he were going to send me that message, it wouldn't be through something-a logistical issue-like this.

There is one guideline that is a challenge for me logistically. Our spiritual director cannot be our pastor.


This is a problem that has to be solved for the benefit of my spiritual guidance, my formation, and my soul.



Pray for me, I do need it.